They said, I’m too frustrated to do all things right away
They said, I am irritable because of that thing
but they didn’t know that I was also disgusted with my such emotions
And they don’t know that I just don’t want to be called worthless
Category: PERSONAL
A Swift Outburst of Emotion
Lately, I feel like I’m just fine and don’t feel any pain. But while I was stunned and here in my room, I was in tears and longing for my life back then. I remember the past where I had many friends, people I talked to and shared with me in joys and sorrows. But it hurts me every time it enters my mind that not all friends are real, not all friends are there for the rest of our life, and not all friends will not leave you. I just miss a few things I used to do with them and have to let go of now … but do I/we really need to let go of it or did it just suddenly disappear? It’s just sad to accept that nothing is permanent in the world, everything changes, everything disappears. As I feel now, I know that I will not remain in this situation that I am always overwhelmed with loneliness. I will also find the joy my heart desires. So, we need to move forward in life and never go back to the past. And all I can do is pray that their lives will be fine and that they will be happy wherever they are now.
Not everyone who comes in your life will stay forever.
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Oh You’re So…
I don’t understand why life is like this, I also don’t understand other people’s mindsets. I mean it’s kinda toxic cause everyone has their own fear, and we should respect that. We should not force a person into what he or she fears because we do not know how they feel. Oh-You may know they are scared but you don’t know exactly how they feel. Above all, that shouldn’t be made a joke. And never call them ‘so sensitive’, remember that not all jokes are amusing especially if you really affect the person’s emotions. Not just because it’s mirthful to you, it’s also funny to others. Let’s think several times first before doing or saying something. One more, sometimes you know what you are doing is wrong, but you still, continue to do it. So, what’s your point? Aren’t you open-minded to such things or do you mean that?
And in the end, those affected are wrong because they are ‘so sensitive’ because “they just take everything seriously”. Oh really? I repeat, is that really the mindset of other people? Oh common, let’s open our minds and let’s respect how everyone feels. Hopefully, we will accept our mistake and this will serve as a lesson. Do not raise your pride and learn to be humble especially if it is your fault. Don’t be so toxic. Am I right?
생일 축하해, 가장 친한 친구!
Hi Joyce! First of all, I want to greet you a happy birthday! I want you to be filled with bliss now and every day.
So here is my message for you,
It’s been two years since I met you. I’m thankful and blessed because I found a friend like you. Thank you so much for all you have done for me. Thank you so much for giving me advice and empathy whenever I feel gloomy or have a problem. Thank you for listening to my rants in life, for understanding me whenever I am not in my mood. Thank you for keeping my secrets. Higit sa lahat, salamat sa pagiging isang tunay na kaibigan. I want to apologize to you if I ever offended you, forgive me for those I say that is not good and hurt your feelings. You are one of my friends that I really treasure and cherish. Salamat dahil lagi kang nanjan thru ups and down. Sorry kung wrong grammar, lol. May our friendship last longer and create more wonderful memories. Wishing you all the best in life. ( Nakulog na huhu ) I will be always here for you no matter what happen. Happy Birthday, ate Joyce!! ❤
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Love,
Angeline Cute
Real friends are few that’s
why I treasure you
The Good Old Days
Hi! How are you? At this time, I am longing for my life back when everything was normal, without pandemic. I miss the days where we can go to the church every Sunday, where we can go to the beaches every summer, where we can celebrate our birthdays with our family and friends, where we can travel or go somewhere without hesitation or trepidation, etc.
I am scared every day because I do not know if the people in our surroundings was sick or not. There are nights when I cry a lot because of the anxiety caused by this disease. I became stress too, whenever I remember about my schooling. I’m not used to online class. Many students said that it was difficult to communicate, and another problem is the unstable internet connection. 😑
This pandemic affects everyone’s lives. Whether you are young or old, a student or a worker or whoever you are, I knew that coronavirus has an impact on you. But let me tell you, taking care of yourself will also help the people in your surroundings so we should always wear our mask, always wash our hands and boost our immune system. I hope that it will end soon.
How about you, do you remember the old days? Stay safe everyone & don’t forget to pray!
Prayers for use in time of Covid-19 (courtesy of Portsmouth Diocese)
Spiritual Communion (cf. St Alphonsus Liguori)
My Jesus,
I believe that you are present in this Holy Sacrament of the altar.
I love you above all things
and I passionately desire to receive you into my soul.
Since I cannot now receive you sacramentally,
come spiritually into my soul
so that I may unite myself wholly to you now and forever. Amen.
General Prayers for Health
Lord Jesus, you came that we might have life in all its fullness.
In this time of sickness and the fear of sickness,
give me the health of mind – that I might seek out wise guidance and act upon it;
the health of body – that will enable me to serve you and those around me;
the health of spirit – that my soul rests in the secure knowledge
that there is nothing that can separate me from the Father’s love.
Give me the grace to share your peace – that peace the world cannot give.
Prayer for affected countries
Lord God, you created our world and its peoples.
Today, we hold before you the people of (name of country)
affected by the coronavirus.
In your goodness, give courage and healing to those who are sick;
and sustain the doctors and nurses who work to care for them.
Give wisdom to those in authority, that in all their decisions,
the dignity and well-being of citizens affected by this virus,
may be of paramount concern.
Prayer for those Affected
Merciful God, come to the help of your people.
Be our shelter in this time of peril
and strengthen the bonds of our community.
Bring healing to all who suffer the ravages of disease
and assist those whose skill and art can put an end to this affliction.
Through Christ our Lord. Amen.
O God, our refuge and our shield,
even when we walk in the shadow of death you are there at our side.
Be with your people in this time of danger:
bring strength to the afflicted
and protection to those untouched by disease.
Give us love and courage, that we may trust in your power to save
and reach out to all who need our care.
Through Christ our Lord. Amen.
Prayer for the Dead
Eternal rest, grant unto them O Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon them.
May + they rest in peace. Amen.
Commendation
Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I give you my heart and my soul.
Jesus, Mary and Joseph, assist me in my last agony.
Jesus, Mary and Joseph, may I breathe forth my soul in peace with you. Amen
https://www.apostleshipofthesea.org.uk/pray-us
Take heart. Don’t quit. Stay with God.
PSALM 27:14
How did I turn my dream as a BLOGGER into reality? (About my Blog)
• WHY “THE PESSIMISTIC DEMURE DREAMER’S DIARY”?
I named my site “The Pessimistic Demure Dreamer’s Diary” because I based it on my personality. Just so you know, I’m a pessimist (I already mentioned it on ‘Get to know meシ). I usually expect more negative outcomes than positive ones. I’m always afraid that something bad might happen in my life. There are times that I always feel frustrated, scared, nervous, worried, and uneasy. Even though I am like that, I have so many dreams and that is why I remain steadfast despite my negative thoughts. DIARY, because I’ll record anything here.
• What you will find on my blog?
➭ Life experiences
➭ Poetry
➭ Random thoughts
➭ Some advices
• How did I turn my dream as a BLOGGER into reality?
Before I tell the story, I want to tell you first that writing is already my passion, since then. Through writing, I can express my happiness, sadness, resentment, and anger that comes from the bottom of my heart. Then and until now, I dreamed of having my own book and blog. I wanted to share some of my thoughts and experiences with others. Furthermore, I want that one day I will be able to read all my writings and remember all the happy (and sad) memories of my life.
And this is what happened …
One day ( In the month of May), I was so sad because I remembered the problems that I encountered. I can still feel the affliction that I felt when I was struggling so I checked my diary on my phone, and read all of my stochastic thoughts. Then, I suddenly thought, what if I created a blog, so without a doubt, I made it. When I already created my blog, I didn’t customize it because I thought that it was going to be so easy and I got busy with other things. However, one week later, I decided to customize my site. Nonetheless, I still have to pay the other things I wanted to do on my blog but I don’t have money ( I mean, I don’t have any credit card) so I just chose the free ones. Even if I don’t have the money to spend on my wants, it’s okay. You should remember that it’s not about in the money but it’s about the creativity. Take a look at my blog today, it ‘s not that so imposing but I’m happy with it and it’ s okay for people like me who are just new on blogging (Though it took me 1 month before I became satisfied with my works hehe). That’s all ♥
Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart.
William Wordsworth
Le Journal du Rêveur Pessimiste 